Saturday, September 6, 2014

Govern The Heart; Don't Let Grave Lure

Being here where i am now has change me tremendously. Before i had always thought that life is a matter of life and death. You go to sleep and the next day you're just hoping that death awaits you. However, i really thank Allah for putting me in an accident that has made me realize that the future is not about living and waiting for your time to die. 

It's an eye opening for me.

Have you ever had that feeling when you met someone and he/she had caused to hurt you forever - have you ever had that moment of regret - not wanting to feel or think about the times you've gone through with him/her. You just felt too disgusted and that to forget or purify yourself was death. I supposed my mind was completely corrupted with my own influential insanity.

Oh wells - What's bygone is bygone after all.

I just felt that i need to blog about 6 September 2014 ( Saturday ):

I received good news from my aunt. She has safely given birth to a baby boy. Amazingly i haven't known his name yet. < There i was; busy with school and work >

The second training practice for ITE musical was quite a tiring day for me - but i still managed to push myself through out the day. Having to know that John picked two male singers - that quite got me off the hook because i've wanted the opportunity to shine but got myself too disappointed with the news. However i am proud to support my friends even though i'm a little too envy of them being picked and being able to perform the "solo" parts...

Probably; i'm expecting too much. Yet another mistake that i wouldn't want to repeat again. So i've learned. For me to think positively about the disappointment i had - i had to tell myself that they're much more better than i am. And hey! I don't have to be nervous about the performance later. I wouldn't want to screw up the performances when i'm nervous. Especially when vocal and dancing play a part together. That's a tough thing to do on stage.

The day goes on along with the bad luck being part in it. I completely forgot to stuff my work clothes in my bag. Wasted 1.5 hours just to get back home and then go to work. I didn't have any proper meal for myself. 

At the end of the day - i found myself lucky. Lucky to be where i am. I'm not talking about being unlucky for not being chosen or happened to have bad luck for the whole day. 

At the end of the day - it's about looking at the smiles you've put on people's face.

This is what i'm living for. 

#HAPPINESS 


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