Wrongly Assumed

I was told to forget my happiness. I was told to make a new one. I had to trade in the old ones for new! No matter how long i tried to keep that "everlasting" thoughts to myself; i just felt like i was drifted apart.

I denied my own feelings. I pretended to smile. I tried far so long to keep holding on. Getting a hold on of what i didn't expect that could never seem too long.

I have yet not a clue if my actions were wrong but i felt too much of taken granted for and the efforts i gave, it all doesn't seem to matter.

Why do they smile when i cry. Why do they laugh when i'm hurt. Why don't they seem to care when i needed help. - because i always had that feeling as if they couldn't be bothered. 

Can't you see behind my smiles? 

Why did you say i sounded sarcastic when i laughed sincerely. Why did you say i sounded angry when i said normally. Why did you say i sounded pissed off when i'm happy. Why does it seems that myself doesn't seem to appeal you. Why is it that everything i did; you just pushed me away.

Is it true? Could it be - I'm being too much for you?

As far as i am concerned; i'm trying to live my life not trying to forget the friendship we had but please do tell me if i don't seem to please you. 

Just needed to remind you that we - humans - don't live to please humans. 

I can choose to walk away but don't misunderstand my actions and behaviour when we see each other.  If you're gonna keep up with that perception of yours - do wake up from your slumber sleep. 

For the last thing i'll say is that - Don't come saying to me i'm someone that only knows how to take granted of people because for sure i don't and i'm not. I'm sorry if you think i did but of all, investigate before interrogating me.