Life changing - After the accident, i'm glad that i'm still breathing. Being able to make new friends and knowing the ones who has been there for you all the time. First of all, i'm proud to have a family. Pop & Mom. The first people to ever be there for me. In a life situation, Mom never fails to advise and gives support. Her encouragement has made me what i am today. As for Pop, i learn great responsibility. He shows me and tells me what's right and what's wrong. He tells me what life has to offer us. Basically i'm proud to be their daughter. They have taught me so much. How can i repay their kindness.
Few days ago, my colleague lost her father to a sudden death. It wasn't expected at all because as far as i know, she told me that her father was physically normal. She teared up and i know that coaxing her will not make her feel much more better. I've been there before. The sadness. I felt it before. Losing someone to a sudden death, as if we got hit by a dynamite. The impact could not be compared to losing someone in a relationship. It's too far off.
Knowing that if i tried too hard to coax her and shower her with my sympathy, i bet she might think wrongly. She told her story and all i could do was to imagine. What if down the road, maybe in 10 years time, it occured to me. I can't bare to think how my Mom/Pop and siblings being able to cope with death news. I have to be prepared in advance. The things i should do.
I wish not to think about it but i will always do. What if...
I lost the dearest one to a sudden death - what will happen to us?
How about my siblings? My youngest brother and sister, will they be able to take in and absorb the fact? Will death ever matter to them? Will they hate God for a reason? By then, am i or will i be completely prepared to face the calls? Oh Allah ...
- Please give me strength. To keep up with the pace. The challange that awaits for me. The times of calling, give me your guidance. Help me when i'm too blinded by darkness. Shine your light and show me your path. -
Now that i think about what happened to her, there's one thing i've not done yet for my parents.
That would be - Treasure them.
I felt how she felt.
Guilty.
Not being able to spend more time with your love ones - deeply affected; should i say?
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