NOTHING HAS CHANGE

NOTHING HAS CHANGE..

The house still remain the same. Messy as it can be.

It's December and new year is this week.

Everyone is still fast asleep even after 10am.

Shoes and socks are still at their place.

We couldn't even be bothered that much because it's still the holiday.

HOLIDAYS ARE MEANT TO BE COUCHED POTATOES..

The house smells of Jabbie(s) - our small turtles - we haven't had the time to clean their waters yet.

No matter how many times i cleaned the house, i wiped and even became too obsessed with house deodorant just to make sure it stays clean but not for too long.. 

BUT SOMETIMES PEOPLE CHANGE AND SO THE WORLD WILL BE..

New houses and probably new neighbours coming in by the mid of next year.

New places to discover and hopefully a place for me to start on my own.

Even my cat - Sahara - just got a new comfy striped cushion for her to have her usually nap(s) under the sink *insert smirk face*..

Off all the places, i don't quite understand why it has to be there.

THERE UNDER THE SINK!  

 

Remember that my last post was dated back in October.

Well there had been so many occurrence in my life and there were things that i didn't expect it to happen.

A friend broke a news to me that she's getting back with her ex-husband even after knowing what she had gone through before. I kept a poker face because i didn't know how to register the situation at that time.

I would conclude that i might be happy but yet disappointed. Whatever it is, i'm not that kind to stoop at someone and force to change their decisions just over my selfishness. 

DECEMBER CAME..

SOMEONE HAD HIS MILESTONE PARADE

We were very proud of him! #twoaug

LAST WEEK OF DECEMBER

Christmas came and it was finally time to say goodbye..

It was indeed a roller coaster ride working at Yong Wen Food(s) Pte Ltd.

Till the next time,

Hope to see some of you around..

OCTOBER WEEKS

This week marks the last week of October.

Of all the months, by far October had been good to me and here's why..

The first few weeks i met with an Old friend of mine - one that shared bad and good days with me - for she was just someone whom i barely knew her as friend from starting.

15th October 2016;

The day that i had been looking forward to - when Taufiq's Mom got together quite well with my Mom. The day our mothers got so close as if they had knew one another for a very long time.

They had names that almost sound the same and they even had the same nickname - not to just say that, they even showed interest in the same interest in food - like eating and crunching on ice! (I mean, how could they even still be crunching on ice at their age; like wow!)

So as planned before hand 2-3 months ago, we had planned to bring them to Marina Bay Sands for a spend time together for our mothers. Not because they were complaining about not spending quality time and not treating them to something; it's just that they deserved to have their treats. After all they're our mothers! 

Years after years of taking care of us and here's to show our appreciation and gratitude.

We brought them to Haji Lane to get to know and feel the new ambiance-new environment; A Cafe @ The Mad Sailors. It was their very first time being there. Checklist; done!

After having had our dinner at Haji Lane; we proceeded to bringing our mothers to Marina Bay Sands (MBS). They knew we were going to watch Wicked the Musical but to their surprise, they didn't expect that the show/auditorium would be that big.

At the end of the show; we all had enjoyed watching the broadway musical. It was fantastic and apparently Taufiq fell in love with the accent of the show. The songs and the story line of which my mom didn't expect it would turn out to be so differently!

I have to say that i just had to get grips on their souvenirs even though i knew that i was out of budget. Hey! They don't come to Singapore always. After all that was their second time in Singapore. Previously i couldn't make it because i couldn't afford to purchase their tickets as i was still schooling and working part time wasn't enough to spend on two people; let alone four.

After the show we went to have supper at Lau Pa Sat but to our surpise - Taufiq and i, it turned out that Taufiq's Mom went ahead with paying our supper when it was supposed to be on us, our treat - their children.

But never mind about that - we still have other times to be treating her again. 

At the end of the day, we all had fun cashing out on mothers and it felt great to treat them once in a while! 

So much love for the both of them.

They even had an awesome night indeed. 

17th October 2016

Lessons commenced!
Three modules on different days..

Not much of getting to know one another in class..
Still too early to say..

25th October 2016 - 27th October 2016;

Swollen left eye infection and on MC for two days..
Missed lessons..

What's new?

If you had been visiting my blog recently, my blog was plain-simple.

One time when i was at work, i got bored and sick over the display pictures i had on my desktop. Same went for the screen savers because they had the same pictures.

So i thought to myself that i should put something new. While i was googling for Sia's HD wallpaper slash iphone, i came about with a floral wallpaper. Guess' i wanted something new for my whatsapp wallpaper too.

This became my new whatsapp wallpaper. #vintagelook

As i was looking for other pictures suddenly something struck my mind. I started searching for floral-vintage wallpaper and i came about with the ones that you see now as my blog-theme.

I felt accomplished with the new look to my blog now.

Apart from what you see in my blog, i'd love to share with you of what happened recently.

Few days ago i met up with a friend of mine for a karaoke session. It had been a very long time since i last met her for dinner at Tang Tea House. We had a lot of catch-ups together. I was more concerned of what's going on with her life ever since she went on her own way. I understood that she had difficulties in her life. Ever since then she had been working so hard to support herself and gained more confidence - i saw her as someone whom's completely turned into a new leaf. More matured but she's more afraid to fall in love. 

She felt at risk of loving someone new. She thought she didn't deserve any of it anymore because it was getting tiring for her. I wished i could help her but i promised myself that i wouldn't want to barge in the circles i was in before.

I wasn't trying to be bad. I knew very well that if i did go back to where i had been before, it would be a nightmare. It was difficult trying to walk out from the circle i was in back then. 

Back to about her, she wasn't someone whom i met when i was in school or so. I got to know her through an email she sent and she was someone's fiancee. He who's name should not be mentioned, was a skunk of liar. Took advantage of every girl's dream and made it into such a nightmare. Up till now, it's such a freak-out moment and a pain in the ass when i think about what happened years ago. It remained vividly in my mind.
 

It still haunts me!

No worries about how i am feeling right now because i feel much more better with Taufiq's presence.

However i pitied the latter. I realized that she had problems with her friends and when i mentioned about her friends, i knew her one and only best friend. He's so complicated.

If only he could realize the misdeeds he did. Sometimes he's too egoistic that he didn't know the hurt he had caused to his friends. He had lost me but he thought he hadn't. I was once sully by him - not physically but emotionally affected by his actions of which he didn't sees it.

But yet, he's too happy ongoing with his life.

Although i heard that he had arguments with his lady, things got bad but who cares!

I almost lost myself if it wasn't for him.

With whatever had happened recently, i prayed and wished the best for my girl here. I hoped that someday she would just walk out from the life she's having right now. I hoped that she'd find someone who deserves and treats her better.

The end.  

AGEING

 

Welcome October!

You'd think that i'd start bragging about wrinkles and the saggy skin. You got it all wrong! I didn't mean The Ageing. I meant the fact that it's already October and i found myself too caught up with the work - having had to do overtime due to posting of invoices - and it's all about "ageing" (getting older) life is getting tougher. To add to that, supposedly i am to start school next week but i am already frustrated with the school. They said to me that they would email the schedules. I'm worried because i had yet to compromise with the HR regarding my work timing. Gee!

The end of September.

The end of September; 

- Paternal side -

We had family bonding and some catch-ups. I couldn't remember the last time i really spent some time together with my father's side of the family. It was indeed fun but a little bit complicated when it came down to food and the location of the pit my Aunt booked. I was glad that Taufiq got along pretty quite well with the family - it was his very first time spending the "whole" (he came at 0200 hours) entire night with my paternal's side.

My last week of September ended with a caption that i would always remember; 

"You know; We should be watching the Sun rise together but he was fast asleep."

Indeed was i wide awake at around 0700 hours, watching him whom was fast asleep and hugging the sleeping bag so tightly. As i watched him, i wondered and found myself so amazed at how amazing this guy could be. Of which i realized that he had been the kind of guy who would be willing to sacrifice his sleep, time and energy; just to make someone/people happy.

When all those things he had taken notice and cared for - at the end of the day, he didn't get what he deserved and that i learnt to sympathize him more then the last time. I knew that at times he would break down because things got a little too hard on him. Honestly, our relationship wasn't at the verge - most people would mistake the way i tried to interpret our story. We didn't end up that way (just praying so hard that Allah would guide us always). We knew that when hard times came by; We knew that we would always be there for each other.

That's the whole thing about team spirit. We stick together - no matter what! 

This is part of "AGEING".

Growing older and getting wiser, the expected way we should be.

October came and everything seemed so hectic!

I did overtime to do some of September's closing. 

Piles after piles of work - Long list of orders had to be keyed in - Calls after calls from customers. We ended up finishing our work till 1930 hours, the first week of October.

At least i got to have some late dinner with my lovely Ate at Four Fingers.

The sad thing was that, Taufiq had been in camp for two weeks without having had any nights out. I got to see him just last week for only one day - it was not like it was our first time!

Just that ever since the first week of October came, i was mentally exhausted and would always end up coming back from work and falling asleep without taking any showers till the next morning. It might sound disgusting but it was really tiring. I felt bad that i couldn't entertain Taufiq much via phone calls or text messages - to the extent that i requested him to wait until i had completed my work and i promised him that i would give him a call.

He's the best place/person to brag and rant about - the best listener!

However with the first week of October treating us this way, we got no other choice but to look forward to next week to spend time together with our mothers. 

After all we're bringing them to watch Wicked the Musical. Goodie!

So how far have i been feeling?

It's okay to be so held up at work sometimes because you work hard to earn more and spend hard to get what you want and what you deserve!

I finally got myself a handbag!

And i got to spend the hard-earned money on my well-deserved mother for being the 'bestest' mother i could ever ask for!

I got for her some necessities and i had the amazing feeling when i got to treat my mother.

Hoping that someday i would be able to bring my mother travel around the world with me.

That's when her 'ageing' worries me..

Lets put that aside for now - lets work hard!

September came..

September came and i had many things planned for this month.

Obviously every 2nd of the month, it's Twoaug's monthsary. It was optional for us to celebrate however this month was much special to us. I was not only celebrating our monthly-monthsary but September was Taufiq's birthday. 

Back in July, Taufiq had it all planned for that month. Of course it was my birthday. He brought us to the Universal Studio Singapore (USS). I had tons of fun being there with him although i didn't get to take the roller-coaster rides due to some circumstances.

So September came and i wanted to do something special for him again, compared to the previous year. Last year i was still in school and i didn't earn much to make the special surprises for him. So i thought this year would be wonderful. I tried putting plans to have his parents coordinated with me but that didn't happen this year. 

Instead i got a call from Taufiq saying that i had to make myself free in the evening. His parents wanted me to tag along. I knew something wasn't right - very fishy. I beat around the bush trying to get some answers out from Taufiq. I had my reasons to do so because my mind was going wild thinking the possibility of his parents coming to my house and having a 'meet-the-parent-session'. Yikes! Scary but anxious. Who wouldn't?

That evening, i found out the answers to my questions. Apparently it was a "surprise" that i got from Taufiq and his family that they were dining in at Seoul Garden. At least it was relieving to find out the fact that we were having a normal family dinner together. Over the table, we talked about things that Taufiq's father and i know about the 'kampung' lifestyle compared to Taufiq and his Mom. It was enjoying and i was hoping if someday we could all just go out and did memory lanes together. Fun way of getting to the family more better. I would definitely love it very much!

Back to where i was talking about trying to surprise Taufiq. 

Eventually i did try making some communication wise with his bestfriend and his camp mate (eventually he was my friend) but the result came out zero. Although his camp mate did try to make an attempt to come down but it was too late as i already had it all planned to bring him to the Night Safari.

I thought i could completely surprise him but then yet again, i wrecked my own plan because my mouth couldn't shut. I just had to ask Taufiq whether it would be worth the money to go to Gardens by the Bay, Night Safari or the Singapore Flyer. I really regretted for doing that. Sheesh!

It was really a tough decision but at least i made some reservation at the Mad Sailors Cafe. It was our second time going to a cafe. Just like last year, i brought him to the Rouze Cafe located at Little India but this time round, it was at Haji lane. A cafe that i had known while i was working because they were one of our customers. We had some talks about this anonymous guy making his orders - he was known for his accent and prices. Shall keep that confidential!

I could see that he had never been to cafe's before. He was acting very awkwardly every time we entered Cafes. The reason i brought him to such places was to have him experience what would it feels like to be in a foreign places and to be able to adapt to the people and the kind of atmosphere/ambiance. Some day i believed that we would travel the world and that he should understand how the society works.

He has to learn to be wiser and act maturely with his decisions.

Enough said about how he should be but i wanted him to understand that there were times he could play around and strictly be serious. In sha allah. I just want the best for him. I want the world to stop looking at him like he was just but a child. I want people to stop bullying him - let it be directly or otherwise. I really wished that he could see and understand what i'm feeling for him.

'When you're truly in love with someone, you want everything to be the best. You want the world to know that he could do his ultimate best and that he shouldn't be a disappointment to anyone'.

Apart from stressing him, i brought him to the Night Safari. It was our first time being there.

I never knew he would talk so much. The whole entire night with him, he was entertaining himself because i was just too busy admiring and had thoughts to myself on 'HOW IN THE WORLD DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM'. Although he might seemed childish and foolish at times, i couldn't underestimate that any guy would be childish at a point of his life. 

And how did we end our night?

We had supper at one of the nearest Indian coffee shop.

Welcome to the Mid-September...

BONDS

Happy Anniversary #Twoaug!

- 2 August -

Next year will mark a decade of knowing Taufiq since we were in high school. A year ago (2015), he asked me informally to be his girlfriend but i left him hanging since i was somehow slash somewhat disappointed in him - probably he could've asked earlier; made me waited for him to pop out the question (like what?!). 

Now - a year later, 'Anniversary' was supposed to be special however not for my case. I had been his best friend for almost a decade and being together with him makes no difference because after all those years, we had always been there for one another (i think so). The big differences were of being able to be emotionally and physically attached. You could say we had fun during our youthful days but with a little bit mixture of romance into adulthood, love really trapped us both. No worries if our anniversary celebration had to wait because having had to have a boyfriend whom currently serving his national service - by right as his girlfriend; i am also expected to be prepared for such turn of events. I'm glad that i fought such battle but this.. - NOT THE END. YET.

That's not the only battle Taufiq and i had to face. 

Now you see?

Apparently we are taking to the next level. Engagement? Yes but not too soon. We are trying to set up dates for the both of our families to meet up and have dinner together. Open some conversations so that it wouldn't get too awkward for any future gatherings. We don't wish to have just 'us' to get to know each other's family but we wish to see both of the families getting to know one another too. You can call it 'expanding'. So far, we have no problem and have not yet experience anything bad but in sha allah, hope everything will go smoothly.

Credits: Taufiq's Mom

Just about a week ago, Taufiq without asking for my permission he fetched me from work and brought me to meet his family for dinner. After dinner we went to have some recreation-family time together at Chevron; we played bowling. Honestly it was my first game. The last time i entered the bowling premises was when i was a little girl watching my pops playing with a group of his colleagues (perhaps) and all i knew was to watch intensely at the ball as it roll into the drain and comes back rolling out from the 'thing' (basically the machine).

Having had to try out after being insisted to give it a trial from Taufiq's family, without hesitation i changed my shoes and took the ball. First try was a failure but second to the third, it got way much more better. It was fun but i don't mind giving it another shot in the game.

I see myself smiling for the future.

In sha allah.

Bismillah..